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Jul. 24th, 2017

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I'm never gonna be sober. and I'm never gonna stop cutting. At this rate, I honestly don't think I even want to.

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I don't care anymore. Nothing will ever change for me no matter how hard I try. My parents shouldn't have bothered getting me open heart surgery when I was 4 months old. They should have just let me die, because I am nothing.

Jul. 16th, 2017

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I'm absolutely worthless. I don't have a job. I don't have girlfriend. I don't have anything, really. All I do is drink and I just don't care anymore. I don't care about controlling myself. I cut so bad the other night I thought I would die. I wanted to die. I just feel so stupid, depressed, fat and alone. I'm just so ugly and fat. I mean nothing to anyone.

May. 23rd, 2016

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I've been at the same job for nearly two years and I'm still so absolutely depressed. I don't know how I've lived this long. I honestly feel like I still want to die. The only reason I haven't is because of my best friend. I really just don't know how to be happy. i feel so worthless it doesnt even matter anymore. i keep cutting because i just don't care at all. most days i just wish i wouldnt wake up in the morning.

Jan. 7th, 2016

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For some reason drag queens really bother me. I know some of my close friends are drag queens and I've been to plenty of drag shows, so this is not ignorance. It's just that, they get all dressed up in these outrageous outfits and act all dramatic and they think that's what being a woman is. Well guess what honey, being a woman is much more than that. I feel like you can't be a woman until you have vagina. A man dressing up as a woman is still a man. Sorry not sorry but that's my opinion. I know it's confusing for some people but it's frustrating for me to see these people who think that that is all being a woman is. Drag is just theater. It's an art, not a lifestyle. I mean, come on. If you want to be a woman, get a vagina, have a period and then you might be able to talk. But as the saying goes, no ovaries, no opinions. Also, same goes with drag kings. Sorry if it seems like I'm offending anyone, not my intent at all, but I am allowed to my opinions and as I said, I just get really frustrated by it. It all just seems like petty nonsense.

Nov. 17th, 2015

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Welp- once again I've been drinking. But I don't really care anymore. I mean, I can be sober some days. And other days not. It's really not an issue and I don't know why some people are freaking out about it. But basically they can suck it, because it's my life and I'll do what I want.

Nov. 16th, 2015

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Days like today I wish I'd never been born. I know it's a stupid wish, but I feel like such a worthless disappointment and it doesn't look like things are getting any better. I'm honestly the biggest waste of time. I wish I had the courage to end my life because I don't even want to live it anymore. I'm just so tired. And I'm just so done. My parents probably hate me. I don't belong anywhere. I just should really go. Because I'm not doing anyone any favors here.

Nov. 15th, 2015

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I hate everything in my life right now. I broke my phone, again. I just fixed it last week. So basically, I give up. I don't care anymore. I'm going to destroy myself because it just doesn't matter. So goodbye. Whatever, I don't care. And goodbye.

Nov. 10th, 2015

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Even my parents agree that I'm more of a liability than an asset.

Mar. 25th, 2015

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I just want to cut my heart out and get rid of it.

Sometimes they're with you.
Sometimes they're against you.
And sometimes they owe you.

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